I was out at the fabric store yesterday picking up fabric to exchange quilt squares with a couple other IM(Inner Mongolia) families for our "100 Good Wishes Quilts." The woman cutting the fabric just casually asked what I was doing with the fabric...as soon as I started to explain the tradition of the "100 Good Wishes Quilt" I could feel myself getting choked up and my lip begin to quiver...she also must have been feeling the emotion because she told me to stop...she couldn't hear anymore or she was going to start to cry...I could see her eyes watering. They say when you are pregnant your hormones are raging and just about anything can set you off...not sure how it works when "your're pregnant in your heart"...I hope there is such a thing as "adoption hormones"...because if there isn't I guess I'm just cracking up!...and this is NOT a convenient time for this to happen! I can be driving down the street, listening to the radio and all of a sudden something will set me off and the tears start to flow. Now, the rest of you out there, also impatiently waiting for your travel approval...please tell me your are going through the same roller coaster of emotions. I really need assurance that I'm not just loosing it. I'm assuming that having your childs picture and still not being able to hold them in your arms could evoke emotions in a similar way to those that are produced by the hormonal changes in one that is PHYSICALLY PREGNANT.
Monday, February 12, 2007
"ADOPTION HORMONES????"
I was out at the fabric store yesterday picking up fabric to exchange quilt squares with a couple other IM(Inner Mongolia) families for our "100 Good Wishes Quilts." The woman cutting the fabric just casually asked what I was doing with the fabric...as soon as I started to explain the tradition of the "100 Good Wishes Quilt" I could feel myself getting choked up and my lip begin to quiver...she also must have been feeling the emotion because she told me to stop...she couldn't hear anymore or she was going to start to cry...I could see her eyes watering. They say when you are pregnant your hormones are raging and just about anything can set you off...not sure how it works when "your're pregnant in your heart"...I hope there is such a thing as "adoption hormones"...because if there isn't I guess I'm just cracking up!...and this is NOT a convenient time for this to happen! I can be driving down the street, listening to the radio and all of a sudden something will set me off and the tears start to flow. Now, the rest of you out there, also impatiently waiting for your travel approval...please tell me your are going through the same roller coaster of emotions. I really need assurance that I'm not just loosing it. I'm assuming that having your childs picture and still not being able to hold them in your arms could evoke emotions in a similar way to those that are produced by the hormonal changes in one that is PHYSICALLY PREGNANT.
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3 comments:
Hey Liz,
I think this has a lot less to do with the pregnancy and a lot more to do with motherhood. My heightened emotions started when I was pregnant true, but I still find that they are carried with me and many things set me off (that wouldn’t even have fizzed me before). So welcome to the motherhood club!
Tara
Hi Liz,
I have to agree with Tara. I havent been pregnant in 5 years and still songs and things set me off too. I think it is because you have kids and you love them unconditionally that certain things bring up memories and make you cry.
Joanne
Hi Liz
I think all those emotions are absolutely normal. Like the other posts said it is the emotions of motherhood. Waiting for labour to start or waiting for that phone call, both the same sort of waiting. Hang in there it'll come.
Mary
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